family happiness

It is perhaps my greatest fear

though it is just now a pain in my mind.

It came with age.

As a child, I feared more abstract things

darkness, demons, bumble bees

But now, the fear that haunts me is one too real to disregaurd.

A girl

A dreamer

She waits and waits for love to come

She dreams of how he'll smell

And the words he'll use and stories he'll tell

She awaits the heartbeats

And turns down the bed sheets

And perhaps her lover comes

And perhaps they marry

Set sail

And are blissfully in love

for a while(and that is the part that scares me the most)

I've always heard it said that marriage

Is about finding a partner, someone to walk out life with you

Like a buisness deal of sorts

And making a decision to love them

For time wages war on the affections of man

And perhaps you have caterpilars

And perhaps you are taken with wild glee

But soon enough, it fades into a painful memory

And you are left with a personA person you love

But the love has changed

Grown, matured, and settled into a rational decision.

I will love you. I made a promise.

This is my fear

That the fire will fade

And I will be unable to stop the inevitable

And I wonder if I must accept it

Seperate rooms

Cordial conversation

Dutiful compliments

Australian Idol night

Trackpants

If it is as they say

Then I will chose to be alone

For I cannot and will not bow to ideals of comfortable tolerance

I want insanity

passion

breaking glass

cities

fire

symphonies

imagination

honesty

open roads

story books

danger

captivation

But how does one know?

Can you ever know?

Or is it a risk we take

A leap into darkness

Knowing that it is truly better to taste love
if only for a moment
and be glad that you were lucky enough to breath its air

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