Today has been one of those days where everything from the last few weeks has seem to have caught up. Today is that somber day where I sit back and wonder what the heck am I doing here? Like a hamster in a wheel I feel like I continue to walk around and around in circles and the only way I know Ive walked this territory before is that I see the notes, from myself, promising that I would never again be here. But somehow I am.
I don't know if its a mixture of exhaustion and lack of time but today I woke up, looked at my reflection in the mirror and felt like I have lost all direction, not vision for those without vision perish, but I guess in many ways I thought my life would look different than it does.
Do you ever feel like we are always waiting for something. treading water until he notices you. Killing time until the wedding. Waiting to buy a house or have a baby. Just waiting waiting waiting????
I need Ecclesiastes 3:1-15 to hit my stubborn, over thinking, slightly obsessive compulsive head, as I remember once more that there is a time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
And then I think I need to sleep, rest and know that He is God..