I remember the wise words of my mother who always told me that time has the amazing ability to heal all wounds. But as I get older, i am realising that maybe its what you do in the time that determines the level of freedom. I think that's its a choice... and although at times it seems much easier to throw your hands up, eat a poison apple and sleep happily while others make the decisions that you didn’t have the courage to make. But I pose this question to you... did Sleeping Beauty wake up and realise that she isn't where she wanted to be?
"Like a dog that returns to its vomit- it is a fool who repeats his folly."
- proverbs 26:11I think
that the biggest poison of my generation has been one thing: selfishness.
When I think of my life over the past 7 months I cant believe at all that has happened! There has been some amazing triumphs, not just in my life, but in the lives of those around me…. My relationship with 2 incredible women have been fully restored (major God thing), I have painted (yes Mel, I will finish your painting), I have scrapped, I have studied, I have flown away. I have returned. I have had my heart shattered and ive worked hard to repair it (watch this space) and sadly, like a dog, I returned to my folly once or twice.
BUT. I have come to the decision to take control. Lately I have found myself stressed, time-poor and not happy with how my life is. I don’t like not having time to do the simple things. So next semester I am going to drop Uni back to part time… things will work better….(and I wont feel like quitting) I think I begging to realise that although we are all human, we are vastly different and should compass our lives accordingly, including university.
I’m sorry if this post confuses you, I really don’t have a point to it…other than to say that the human spirit is beautiful and resilient. There isn’t much we cant find our way back from. And for that, I am thankful.